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ce parere am eu..

2009-11-23T02:17:00.000-08:00

in primul rand ar trebui sa incep prin a spune ca omul este o fiinta sociala, o fiinta care nu numai ca vrea, dar are nevoie sa faca parte dintr-o colectivitate. si din cate am inteles in ultima vreme, nevoile nu sunt satisfacute decat daca devin dorinta. pe acest principiu si-au bazat multi intreaga activitate. nu stiu daca trebuie sa ne speriem de lucrul acesta, dar cel putin ar trebui sa fim constienti de el. acestea fiind spuse, unii oameni cu anumite abilitati au invatat sa ii faca pe oameni sa creada ca au nevoie de ei. si aici trebuie sa subliniez ca nu ii condamn. e meritul lor. vina este a celor ce le permit. si pentru ca tot am ajuns la acest cuvant, poate va intrebati de ce am ajuns in situatia sociala si politica actuala. pentru ca am permis.
doctorii sunt niste oameni exceptionali, remarcabili prin altruismul de care dau dovada (desi altruismul pur nu exista ca o cauza ci doar ca efect), taria de caracter, sacrificiul, in Romania (si de aceea am scris aceste randuri in romana) sunt cel putin neapreciati la adevarata lor valoare. in aceeasi categorie intra si profesorii. nu intru in polemica cazurilor speciale care trebuie tratate ca atare.
eu am treminat o facultate foarte grea, in domeniul IT. cand m-am apucat de ea mi s-a spus ca o sa fie cautati inginerii in domeniu. eu am facut-o pentru ca am vrut sa vad ca o pot face. a fost mai mult un test de anduranta. nu stiam pe vremea aceea ce sa fac. nici acum nu stiu. dar asta nu ma nelinisteste. de ce?
raspunsul e simplu si este dat de intrabarea: cand este cel mai usor sa iei o decizie?
revenind la subiect, imi este teama ca si noi, inginerii sa ii lasam sa ne calce in picioare.
de remarcat ca si in regnul animal pozitia de leader este "muncita". ea este obtinuta si mentinuta. numai ca acolo singurul criteriu de evaluare este genetic.
noi oamenii suntem mai speciali la capitolul evaluare si aici ma refer la faptul ca suntem inteligenti (nu superiori neaparat. de ce?). noi am invatat sa trisam! o alta intrebare interesanta este: cine face testele? ce vor ele sa scoata in evidenta?
acum. cei ce au gasit o nisa au profitat de ea si au promovat-o folosindu-de de anumite abilitati. cand au ajuns pe o anumita pozitie, urmeaza procesul de mentinere a ei prin crearea impresiei unei dependente asupra consumatorilor si una de superioritate asupra competitiei.
eu unul m-am saturat sa vad oameni de care se profita. daca le permitem, o sa fie mult mai greu mai tarziu sa facem ceva. nu pentru ca va trebui sa ne luptam cu ei, profitorii, ci cu noi insine, cei ce le-am permis sa profite de noi.
daca nu m-am facut inteles, gandeste-te ce ar putea face un profesor acum sa aiba salariu mai mare?
sa refuze sa munceasca? e prea tarziu. sunt atatia care ar munci pe cat primeste el. pentru ca accepta. si profitorii stiu asta. in speta economia este o stiinta (si da.. are matematica in ea, nu numai stiinte sociale). in schimb, profitorii stiu ca destabilizand sistemele inclina balanta in favoarea lor. (in termeni economici e vb de cerere-oferta. creand impresia falsa a unei cereri scazute pe piata muncii creste oferta - oameni dornici de munca. astfel isi permit sa scada renumeratia pe acelasi pozitii - care sunt absolut necesare si asta trebuie sa constientizam. ei au nevoie de noi - adica cererea e MARE, numai ca nu stiu cum sa ne fraiereasca sa obtina cat mai mult de la noi pe cat mai putin).
ce ar trebui sa facem? sa nu ne creem dependente, iar daca avem un produs competitor, sa nu acceptam disconsiderarea sau instrainarea lui.
un lucru pe care l-am invatat in timpul facultatatii. nu ne permitem cea mai buna solutie. ar fi perfect daca s-ar putea, dar de cele mai multe ori nu se poate.
asa ca trebuie sa acceptam compromisuri. daca va plac dependentele (si uneori avem nevoie si de asa ceva - dependenta este legata de nevoia de siguranta - este ceva repetat in mod continuu si uniform) schimbati-le din cand in cand (si alegeti-le pe cele mai sanatoase :) )
mult succes.

un inceput

2009-07-06T04:50:00.000-07:00

am dormit doua ore azinoapte. dar mi-am promis ca imi schimb viata. sunt tanar. inca.
trebuie sa incerc si alte lucruri. nici nu m-am gandit prea mult cand am fost invitat la munte. desi nu stiam decat pe cea care facuse invitatiile. cu ea vorbisem pe net. de vreo saptamana.
imi tremura mainile ca si cum as fi facut flotari. am capul in nori. dar acum e timpul sa trec peste. trebuie sa ajung la gara.
ne adunam. se pare ca ii stiu mai pe toti. din priviri.
in tren ne cunoastem mai bine. cel putin eu pe ei. eu nu spun prea multe. majoritatea sunt bucuresteni si colegi de grupa.
niste zanatici. nu au stat in camin. nu inteleg cum de sunt asa de apropiati. fac mereu mistouri unul pe seama celuilalt.
si le trec numai trasnai prin cap. ramai masca. presupun ca sunt si foarte inovatori pe plan profesional. zici ca au fumat iarba. dar atunci de ce rad eu?
nu trece mult si ajung si io subiect de facut misto. se pare ca sunt cel mai galagios de acolo.
pe caraiman sunt nori. decidem sa mergem la piatra mare. coboram in predeal. luam un microbuz pana in timisul de jos si pleam in expeditie.
drumul. ce conteaza. am mai fost la munte. am mai fost aici. am grija la fiecare pas. mai obosim. mai tacem.
ajungem sus. la cabana. din pacate, dupa niste calcule decidem ca nu mai avem timp sa mergem si pe varf. ramanem la cabana. bem un ceai cald. radem. si radem.
drumul de intoarcere. la fel.
incercam sa mergem la pestera de gheata. e prea abrupt pentru unii dintre noi. suntem deja obositi si e tarziu.
dupa o sedinta foto coboram. facem un popas chiar la iesirea din padure. ne asezam pe iarba. mancam. radem. si radem.
trebuie sa ajungem in brasov. pierdem doua microbuze. astea vin din ora in ora, nu prea ne vine sa mai asteptam. se pare ca brasovul e nitel mai departe decat calculasem pentru a merge pe jos.
mihaela are ideea sa rugam pe cei ce pleaca de acolo sa ne ia si pe noi. ne impartim in doua grupuri. ne intalnim la gara.
desi eram mai convenabil sa iau un microbuz decid sa raman cu grupul. e timpul sa nu ma mai gandesc la bani. trenurile au intarziere. avem destul timp. mergem in centru. facem poze. cautam gogosi. nu gasim. ne intoarcem. aproape pierdem trenul.
pe tren incearca sa doarma. eu nu. eu stau de veghe. nici ei nu reusesc. cand se mai trezeau ne mai amuzam.
intr-un tarziu ajungem in gara. ne despartim. incerc sa iau un taxi. era ora 1:30 noaptea. se pare ca la ora asta nu se mai taxeaza pe aparat. se profita.
decid sa merg mai departe de gara si sa incerc sa iau alt taxi. ma suna mama. perfect. aveam nevoie de indicatii. nu prea poate sa ma ajute. dar nu strica o voce cunoscuta.
merg pe traseul autobuzului. ma ratacesc pe undeva. ajung la alta gara. intreb un taximetrist cum sa ajung la victoriei. pe jos. imi spune. ma intorc 100 metri si incerc pe noul traseu.
incep sa recunosc locurile. mai intreb pe cineva pe drum pentru indicatii. unii ma ignora total. primesc un raspuns. ajung pe linia tramvaiului ce ma ducea la facultate. acum totul e clar. in 30 min sunt acasa. la ora 3.
de neuitat. sper sa uit. dupa experiente asemanatoare.

rules

2009-03-31T03:37:00.000-07:00

I keep thinking of the rules we make..
we have all kind of rules.. ethical, political, formal and informal.. written on paper.. and in stone.. new and ancient
we have always been trying to reach the common good
and we keep changing these rules to cover what we've apparently missed
and we always get to a point where we fail to reach our goal
and we change them again..
what we fail to understand is that we are not capable (we are not willing enough) to respect rules.. whichever these might be
we only deal with the situation as it comes

it's about you

2008-12-30T14:24:00.000-08:00

I have taken a lot of time to think of this.. and it's the latest subject I've been wondering on..

Why are we here? What is our purpose?
Well.. it's easy to see what one's purpose is just by looking at which of its actions are supported.. I like to make an analogy between men and chicken..
Did you know that the chicken population in about 24 billion individuals?
They are many.. it might seem a prosperous civilization.. if I were a chicken to say. But of course as a chicken I would not see my purpose. I would get fed. I'd lay eggs. I'd be happy.
What are we as humans doing? If our purpose is not implied by ourselves.. of course I would not have an answer to that.. It's impossible for me to grasp it.
Anyway.. I can grasp this concept at least.
Purpose may only be a human concept.. we may not even have a purpose.. but we are still here.. by chance? maybe..

Chaos is an order we can not understand - that is the basics of chaos theory
As we can not defeat death.. we are all some sort of tries of something.. and.. as we fail.. we leave our descendants to make another try..

Evolving is a purpose some may say.. but.. as we have limits.. we will get to a level where there will be so much knowledge that even by consuming all of you time on getting it.. you will not be able to finish.. even nowadays we get scraps of information.. and none of us can cover all fields.. we need each other.
Unfortunately not all of us are to be trusted.. we may never reach that level.

..without purpose, we would not exist..
Another important aspect about purpose is the very meaning of it.. we live because we have a purpose.. it's what makes you wake up in the morning..
But be careful.. purpose can be wrapped around everything you want.. it might be a dream.. a person.. we should be very careful with what we wish for.. and more important.. what do we do when we get it.. is there another purpose we can find?
If you don't find your own.. you might look for it elsewhere.. and.. out there are many that would like you to be their slave.. they might just give you one.. for free. Don't look for idols or models..
and.. believe me.. I didn't write this for you.. not even for my descendants.

don't

2008-12-28T14:05:00.000-08:00

By giving help.. you are not helping at all.. Don't try to help anyone you wish to grow stronger.. you wish to be free.

"you and I meet here.. we have always met here"
actually a less ambiguous form of that would be: you and I meet here.. it was always meant for us to meet here. Don't worry that things won't happen when there is no other way for it to happen..

when does it end?

2008-12-27T11:03:00.000-08:00

Have you ever wondered?

Do we have any limits? should we?
As much as we'd like to think we do not have limits.. we do.. it's our nature.

How about greed? how can anyone be so greedy that he can not stop asking for more? To answer that.. let's look into what we gain by having things..
It's opportunities.. I get a new car.. I can take long trips.. I can go anywhere I want whenever I want.. no matter the time of day or year..
I get a new house.. I already had one.. but.. I didn't have a pool.. now.. I have a pool.. I can get my "friends" (not commenting on the quotes right now) over whenever I want.. whenever I feel lonely.. I'm important..
But if I have all this.. why isn't it all enough? What else could I ask for?
It's because we do not treat this kind of opportunity with responsibility..
We actually do not become free.. all these come with sacrifices.. and obligations..
What I didn't see when I bought my new car.. is the insurance that I have to pay for it and the gas to run it..
My home can no longer be taken care of all by myself.. so.. I have to pay the housekeeper, the gardener.. and again.. the insurance.. It's not my house anymore..
So.. if I stumble in some situation that does not allow me to sustain my current level in society.. I am no longer there.. that's why it is impossible for me to give up whatever I'm doing to sustain this way of life..

The simplest example is a star: "oh.. look.. I am glamorous.. great.. famous.. rich.. I can have everything I want.." everybody wants that (wonder why?.. watching TV?)
But these are clowns.. they don't even have the rights to live a normal life.. they don't have privacy.. they get stuff for free.. but their every move is being watched and criticized. These guys are not free.. they are puppets. They have to come on the red carpet every year for you to see and praise. 'cause if they don't.. mass-media has a simple way of ruining you.. and then.. who will pay for that great house with pool.. It would be a real shame to have lost it.. what kind of example is that.. success is only up.. .. really?

When you are offered an opportunity of making money.. or whatever.. becoming important.. don't just throw it away on obligations.. because by making these dependencies on the system.. you will not be able to escape them in bad times..
Ever wondered why do you hear rich people commit suicide in times of crisis?
Hmm.. one would be that they got some level of importance.. but got fooled in making connections.. making promises to some other parties.. that are ruthless when it comes to getting what it is expected.. and.. in some situations.. there are things a lot more horrible than death.

I have a say.. you can't get in trouble if you are invisible.. but you can't make anything great either.

slaves give birth to slaves

2008-11-21T13:05:00.000-08:00

What if I told you the Moon is mine, and you had to pay me money to see it.
What if I told you that Earth was mine and you have to pay me money to live on it. While the first one sounds silly (actually there are people that buy land on the Moon or other planets in our solar system) the second is more realistic. Except it's not me that is taking money from you.
How can there be a difference?
You should read my previous post to get an idea of the answer to that.

The thing is that we are alone in this Universe, so.. it is ours, we have no one else to share it with but ourselves.
Having this perspective our resources are unlimited. We just have to get organized to get what we need.
But for now, all we have is here on Earth. As our number has increased, our consumption rate leaves visible effects on the planet.

Before calling ourselves evolved let's point out where we came from.
Humans as all animals need to satisfy some needs having given some limited resources and means of getting to them. Who lived and who died was decided by nature - to be interpreted as certain uncontrolled events.
All specimens, to survive had the same rule: there are no rules. You had to be stronger to protect your resources from intruders.
But we have evolved..
What are we looking at now? Not much has changed, except that we impose ourselves rules that leave the majority hopeless and some with certain positions the means to manipulate all others. We are actually enslaving ourselves.
How? By giving too much credit to money. We have been raised in believing all resumes to it. Over and over again we are reminded that a successful life means money, and fame. How about education, ethics? We are all in a system where a cause-effect rule applies whether we like it or not.
Instead, they promote the making of money by any means, so that they meet no resistance.

And now.. commercials
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KRbzJ0L1Zn8
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wItKyTltJWM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vJz_dsubWAU

?? It's all about being flashy, outstanding. Outstanding? We are all the same, there is no one superior in any way. We all have potential to do whatever we want. We only differ in what we choose to do.

We have to evolve to a state in which we don't just work for having stuff but work for us as living beings. We should be organized in such a manner that everything we need to sustain life here would be free and available to everyone. We can achieve this. If we all wanted to.
If we manage to use resources out of our planet, then the term of property would have no meaning. Asking for food will be like me now asking you for air. It sounds kind of ridiculous. It is a right I have from the moment I was born because air is plenty for all of us. I don't need anyone to give me something I can get myself without effort and causing no discomfort to others.

Free people look for enslavement.
In certain crisis situations when there is no hope, humans tend to follow the one that gives them hope. But what happens if that someone giving them hope uses this opportunity to build influence and manipulate them for his own wellbeing? We should be skeptical to saviors, especially when we need salvation most. Hope is free, we get it for granted, we do not need anyone to follow. It's only for us to find courage to take action and support our siblings.

they don't really care about us

2008-11-21T11:06:00.000-08:00

"We live in a cynical world.. a cynical world.. and we work in a business of tough competitors" - This is a quote from a movie I love. And it's about what I'm gonna write to you about now.

We all care about ourselves.. there is no altruism. We never do anything for another. It's all for ourselves. If you think you have done anything for another.. think again. You might say: I gave money to the poor.. well that is because you have a certain belief, because you think you will be awarded. How about: I do favors to my friends. Well that's only for you to have friends. The examples could go on.. It's all about the payback of our investment.

"There's no shame in it Raziel.. hate me, but do it honestly!" - A quote from a very interesting game.
It's nothing wrong in doing so. It's the natural way of things. Why? Because our own wellbeing leads to other's wellbeing.
Until it doesn't !!!

It starts from lie.
What is a lie? It refers to telling someone that something is true while knowing that something is false. We are not talking about absolute truth, which refers to the actual state of things whether we know it or not. But there is only one way of getting to that. If we all tell the truth we know.
It's very important to educate ourselves to be truthful. No matter the situation.
I've recently heard a bit of news saying that a child found a wallet full of money and returned it to it's owner without stealing anything. This is a case. A very rare case. What actually entreegued me was what that child's colleagues said: that it was a nice thing to return the wallet, but he could have kept the money.
For those who agree, read no more and get a job.
We have to understand the thing about responsibility.
By not lying you assume responsibility on the truth you know. What is the point in keeping the money if you haven't earned it? It's not yours, it does not state your value. This is what led to the world we live in.
Some consider themselves more important than others and use them for their own wellbeing.. yes.. this is enslavement. It just goes on different levels.
For you it might just be a lie.. but lies on top levels cost lives. Many lives.
There are countries in this world as there have been in the past that manipulate masses into thinking what is convenient for them or not thinking at all by promoting ignorance, telling everyone what they want to hear, hiding them the (well known) truth that there are problems that need to be solved.

What I hate about economy is that it failed to follow its purpose a long time ago.
The main purpose of economy was to rationally use the resources to satisfy needs. This is not the case today. Today we overestimate the value of things by disconsidering (lying to) the so called beneficiarys of our services or products.
In economy effectiveness refers to achieving a certain effect.
Efficiency refers to effectiveness with minimal costs. Well what happened to economy today is that it focuses on efficiency without considering the property of effectiveness. They actually change the result that they were supposed to offer. To give you an example: you think that is milk you're drinking? - just a recent problem in China.
They also ignore the side effects of their actions - as a result please note pollution. Not knowing is an excuse, but knowing and ignoring it is not. Does it sound like a lie? For me it does. And it's not a small one.
I am in the IT field, and we always think about side effects. It is a must.. we have no excuse. Why should they? We also have to think about efficiency, but we get it without wrecking your personal data or assets.

Another thing that's despicable is how the powerful use the things discovered by scientists that were meant to be freely used and take it under authority, putting a cost on it. And as we all know the truth, but in a miss leading form time is money. Money is time. Your time. They decide the cost of our life. Decide what we deserve and what we don't.

how about my girlfriend?

2008-11-21T10:00:00.000-08:00

Well.. I'm not an expert in this.. or I might say I am low on practice, but I like to think I know the theory behind it.
Here it goes.
We all like to be cared for.. better yet.. invested in. If your girlfriend invests time in her for example putting on makeup is only to make you invest your time in her. Invest in her. That is all that is it about. So, appreciate this simple gesture, and even follow it. Us guys have to give something they like too. There is another catch to this. If you invest all of your time in her, she will back away as she will consider you a fool (and for good reasons). Here comes the thing about obligations. If you invest too much in her she will feel enslaved by the thought that she ows you something. Instead, you should try to focus on yourself. Invest in yourself so that she can appreciate your value and feel free to do so. Don't invest, let be invested in, give reasons for that. This way, while both of you investing in yourselves, will give the other the interest he/she needs for investing in himself/herself to rise to your level (it's self sustaining). That's why I consider competition a good thing.

Another thing is about expectations. If you already expect something, you are more likely to be disappointed. Try not to expect anything, and be surprised.
Being predictable is the worst thing for you. I've read an experiment done on pidgins that simulated what people feel when gambling, and the unpredictable event keep them asking for more. The same situation is with relationships. Some unexpected (sometimes contradictory) events may have the effect of cheering up the relationship. That's why playboys get all the "action". Because in their case, the confusing behavior is determined by not carrying, so, believing it or not, they are craving (without even knowing) for what they hate most.
But, how about good guys using dirty tricks in good intentions?

There is also the thing about liberty. Nobody likes to be owned.
I think a strong relationship is made in time (and from what you have learned by now you understand why). So, if you know each other for a long time, there is no need to worry about losing your pair, because you're what she's invested in. She will not give up so easily on that (if she is smart enough). If she does, well.. then she most likely doesn't know what she wants, and you should try to invest in some other person (this is rather hard to do, at least at first.. long subject, maybe a dedicated post later), or maybe give her some time to figure out (if you are strong enough.. this implies her full liberty). This is the thing about investments.. you have to know who to invest in.. you have to ask yourself whether your investment will pay off. Don't ever invest too much without getting feedback (I should read this too after I've written it). Sometimes it just doesn't work or doesn't work anymore. It may not even be you fault. It's just situations.

I know I have missed something, as we all do.. we are only human.
What I've said is valid both for men and women. It's what they look for in the other that makes the difference. How you choose to invest your time in yourself (I'm not going to help you here).
I made 3 simple rules that mostly came from the same movie:
1. give total liberty and accept nothing else.
2. be honest (this might not work), and have as little secrets as possible (the nature of these secrets is up to you - I would use them only to make surprises and provoke, for your mistakes at least give the other the right to judge the faith of your relationship, if you're afraid of the outcome, I'd say you're a coward).
3. don't mess up with the other's feelings. If you don't find any more interest, tell him/her that, at least to know what went wrong (this is in somewhat relation with the latter one).

things you should know..

2008-11-21T05:53:00.000-08:00

I like to see things in terms of investments. Let me explain how everything maps to this model.
So, what is an investment? I looked it up, and the main object of investment is money. But this is not true.. let's forget that for a moment.
I believe the only thing we invest is time. Time is our only true resource, and like any resource.. it is limited.
It's only important what we do with this resource of ours.. our life. For example, we can use it to make money, to teach others, to have fun.. we INVEST it to get what we need.
So, money is not a resource, is the result of our time investment in something that makes money.. a job, playing lottery, and many other ways we have today that are more or less ethical.
Got the idea? If yes.. please continue reading.. if not.. maybe this is not for you.

What do we have so far? In our society we classify things as free and not free.
The things that are not free require some sort of obligation (most of the time an amount of money.. don't forget where these came from.. we actually pay with our life.. bits of it at a time), but because of this, it makes us more aware of our actions, and of what we are offered. Because we make an INVESTMENT, we want the best result.
Now, the tricky part is with the things that are free. Because they do not require any obligation, we take it for granted and not really judge what's its purpose, what are the consequences of allowing that thing in our life.
That's a problem.. (also a quote I like)
Nowadays it's exactly those things that are free that enslave us. There are many people that make use of our naivety to miss guide us or to morally enslave us (making a favor requires a favor back - this is not a natural rule, but it has proven so).
This is not all.. just by being more skeptic to others' intentions makes us lose confidence in the one standing beside us.. maybe this is not so bad, but we get so paranoid that we may isolate ourselves from the rest of the world.
We take more time to make friends (or at least we should), but, in terms of investments, these friends are more valuable. We know their true intentions.
Another thing: if you've got this far, it means you have spent some time reading this. Yes, you've made an investment that I hope will pay off. As you can see, I try to be as straight forward as I can (of course, this statement should make you wonder what's my the purpose in convincing you of that, but it's better to make you wonder than not to).
If you have decided to continue reading, please do. If you have doubts, good luck from now on.