ce parere am eu..

in primul rand ar trebui sa incep prin a spune ca omul este o fiinta sociala, o fiinta care nu numai ca vrea, dar are nevoie sa faca parte dintr-o colectivitate. si din cate am inteles in ultima vreme, nevoile nu sunt satisfacute decat daca devin dorinta. pe acest principiu si-au bazat multi intreaga activitate. nu stiu daca trebuie sa ne speriem de lucrul acesta, dar cel putin ar trebui sa fim constienti de el. acestea fiind spuse, unii oameni cu anumite abilitati au invatat sa ii faca pe oameni sa creada ca au nevoie de ei. si aici trebuie sa subliniez ca nu ii condamn. e meritul lor. vina este a celor ce le permit. si pentru ca tot am ajuns la acest cuvant, poate va intrebati de ce am ajuns in situatia sociala si politica actuala. pentru ca am permis.
doctorii sunt niste oameni exceptionali, remarcabili prin altruismul de care dau dovada (desi altruismul pur nu exista ca o cauza ci doar ca efect), taria de caracter, sacrificiul, in Romania (si de aceea am scris aceste randuri in romana) sunt cel putin neapreciati la adevarata lor valoare. in aceeasi categorie intra si profesorii. nu intru in polemica cazurilor speciale care trebuie tratate ca atare.
eu am treminat o facultate foarte grea, in domeniul IT. cand m-am apucat de ea mi s-a spus ca o sa fie cautati inginerii in domeniu. eu am facut-o pentru ca am vrut sa vad ca o pot face. a fost mai mult un test de anduranta. nu stiam pe vremea aceea ce sa fac. nici acum nu stiu. dar asta nu ma nelinisteste. de ce?
raspunsul e simplu si este dat de intrabarea: cand este cel mai usor sa iei o decizie?
revenind la subiect, imi este teama ca si noi, inginerii sa ii lasam sa ne calce in picioare.
de remarcat ca si in regnul animal pozitia de leader este "muncita". ea este obtinuta si mentinuta. numai ca acolo singurul criteriu de evaluare este genetic.
noi oamenii suntem mai speciali la capitolul evaluare si aici ma refer la faptul ca suntem inteligenti (nu superiori neaparat. de ce?). noi am invatat sa trisam! o alta intrebare interesanta este: cine face testele? ce vor ele sa scoata in evidenta?
acum. cei ce au gasit o nisa au profitat de ea si au promovat-o folosindu-de de anumite abilitati. cand au ajuns pe o anumita pozitie, urmeaza procesul de mentinere a ei prin crearea impresiei unei dependente asupra consumatorilor si una de superioritate asupra competitiei.
eu unul m-am saturat sa vad oameni de care se profita. daca le permitem, o sa fie mult mai greu mai tarziu sa facem ceva. nu pentru ca va trebui sa ne luptam cu ei, profitorii, ci cu noi insine, cei ce le-am permis sa profite de noi.
daca nu m-am facut inteles, gandeste-te ce ar putea face un profesor acum sa aiba salariu mai mare?
sa refuze sa munceasca? e prea tarziu. sunt atatia care ar munci pe cat primeste el. pentru ca accepta. si profitorii stiu asta. in speta economia este o stiinta (si da.. are matematica in ea, nu numai stiinte sociale). in schimb, profitorii stiu ca destabilizand sistemele inclina balanta in favoarea lor. (in termeni economici e vb de cerere-oferta. creand impresia falsa a unei cereri scazute pe piata muncii creste oferta - oameni dornici de munca. astfel isi permit sa scada renumeratia pe acelasi pozitii - care sunt absolut necesare si asta trebuie sa constientizam. ei au nevoie de noi - adica cererea e MARE, numai ca nu stiu cum sa ne fraiereasca sa obtina cat mai mult de la noi pe cat mai putin).
ce ar trebui sa facem? sa nu ne creem dependente, iar daca avem un produs competitor, sa nu acceptam disconsiderarea sau instrainarea lui.
un lucru pe care l-am invatat in timpul facultatatii. nu ne permitem cea mai buna solutie. ar fi perfect daca s-ar putea, dar de cele mai multe ori nu se poate.
asa ca trebuie sa acceptam compromisuri. daca va plac dependentele (si uneori avem nevoie si de asa ceva - dependenta este legata de nevoia de siguranta - este ceva repetat in mod continuu si uniform) schimbati-le din cand in cand (si alegeti-le pe cele mai sanatoase :) )
mult succes.

un inceput

am dormit doua ore azinoapte. dar mi-am promis ca imi schimb viata. sunt tanar. inca.
trebuie sa incerc si alte lucruri. nici nu m-am gandit prea mult cand am fost invitat la munte. desi nu stiam decat pe cea care facuse invitatiile. cu ea vorbisem pe net. de vreo saptamana.
imi tremura mainile ca si cum as fi facut flotari. am capul in nori. dar acum e timpul sa trec peste. trebuie sa ajung la gara.
ne adunam. se pare ca ii stiu mai pe toti. din priviri.
in tren ne cunoastem mai bine. cel putin eu pe ei. eu nu spun prea multe. majoritatea sunt bucuresteni si colegi de grupa.
niste zanatici. nu au stat in camin. nu inteleg cum de sunt asa de apropiati. fac mereu mistouri unul pe seama celuilalt.
si le trec numai trasnai prin cap. ramai masca. presupun ca sunt si foarte inovatori pe plan profesional. zici ca au fumat iarba. dar atunci de ce rad eu?
nu trece mult si ajung si io subiect de facut misto. se pare ca sunt cel mai galagios de acolo.
pe caraiman sunt nori. decidem sa mergem la piatra mare. coboram in predeal. luam un microbuz pana in timisul de jos si pleam in expeditie.
drumul. ce conteaza. am mai fost la munte. am mai fost aici. am grija la fiecare pas. mai obosim. mai tacem.
ajungem sus. la cabana. din pacate, dupa niste calcule decidem ca nu mai avem timp sa mergem si pe varf. ramanem la cabana. bem un ceai cald. radem. si radem.
drumul de intoarcere. la fel.
incercam sa mergem la pestera de gheata. e prea abrupt pentru unii dintre noi. suntem deja obositi si e tarziu.
dupa o sedinta foto coboram. facem un popas chiar la iesirea din padure. ne asezam pe iarba. mancam. radem. si radem.
trebuie sa ajungem in brasov. pierdem doua microbuze. astea vin din ora in ora, nu prea ne vine sa mai asteptam. se pare ca brasovul e nitel mai departe decat calculasem pentru a merge pe jos.
mihaela are ideea sa rugam pe cei ce pleaca de acolo sa ne ia si pe noi. ne impartim in doua grupuri. ne intalnim la gara.
desi eram mai convenabil sa iau un microbuz decid sa raman cu grupul. e timpul sa nu ma mai gandesc la bani. trenurile au intarziere. avem destul timp. mergem in centru. facem poze. cautam gogosi. nu gasim. ne intoarcem. aproape pierdem trenul.
pe tren incearca sa doarma. eu nu. eu stau de veghe. nici ei nu reusesc. cand se mai trezeau ne mai amuzam.
intr-un tarziu ajungem in gara. ne despartim. incerc sa iau un taxi. era ora 1:30 noaptea. se pare ca la ora asta nu se mai taxeaza pe aparat. se profita.
decid sa merg mai departe de gara si sa incerc sa iau alt taxi. ma suna mama. perfect. aveam nevoie de indicatii. nu prea poate sa ma ajute. dar nu strica o voce cunoscuta.
merg pe traseul autobuzului. ma ratacesc pe undeva. ajung la alta gara. intreb un taximetrist cum sa ajung la victoriei. pe jos. imi spune. ma intorc 100 metri si incerc pe noul traseu.
incep sa recunosc locurile. mai intreb pe cineva pe drum pentru indicatii. unii ma ignora total. primesc un raspuns. ajung pe linia tramvaiului ce ma ducea la facultate. acum totul e clar. in 30 min sunt acasa. la ora 3.
de neuitat. sper sa uit. dupa experiente asemanatoare.

rules

I keep thinking of the rules we make..
we have all kind of rules.. ethical, political, formal and informal.. written on paper.. and in stone.. new and ancient
we have always been trying to reach the common good
and we keep changing these rules to cover what we've apparently missed
and we always get to a point where we fail to reach our goal
and we change them again..
what we fail to understand is that we are not capable (we are not willing enough) to respect rules.. whichever these might be
we only deal with the situation as it comes

it's about you

I have taken a lot of time to think of this.. and it's the latest subject I've been wondering on..

Why are we here? What is our purpose?
Well.. it's easy to see what one's purpose is just by looking at which of its actions are supported.. I like to make an analogy between men and chicken..
Did you know that the chicken population in about 24 billion individuals?
They are many.. it might seem a prosperous civilization.. if I were a chicken to say. But of course as a chicken I would not see my purpose. I would get fed. I'd lay eggs. I'd be happy.
What are we as humans doing? If our purpose is not implied by ourselves.. of course I would not have an answer to that.. It's impossible for me to grasp it.
Anyway.. I can grasp this concept at least.
Purpose may only be a human concept.. we may not even have a purpose.. but we are still here.. by chance? maybe..

Chaos is an order we can not understand - that is the basics of chaos theory
As we can not defeat death.. we are all some sort of tries of something.. and.. as we fail.. we leave our descendants to make another try..

Evolving is a purpose some may say.. but.. as we have limits.. we will get to a level where there will be so much knowledge that even by consuming all of you time on getting it.. you will not be able to finish.. even nowadays we get scraps of information.. and none of us can cover all fields.. we need each other.
Unfortunately not all of us are to be trusted.. we may never reach that level.

..without purpose, we would not exist..
Another important aspect about purpose is the very meaning of it.. we live because we have a purpose.. it's what makes you wake up in the morning..
But be careful.. purpose can be wrapped around everything you want.. it might be a dream.. a person.. we should be very careful with what we wish for.. and more important.. what do we do when we get it.. is there another purpose we can find?
If you don't find your own.. you might look for it elsewhere.. and.. out there are many that would like you to be their slave.. they might just give you one.. for free. Don't look for idols or models..
and.. believe me.. I didn't write this for you.. not even for my descendants.

don't

By giving help.. you are not helping at all.. Don't try to help anyone you wish to grow stronger.. you wish to be free.

"you and I meet here.. we have always met here"
actually a less ambiguous form of that would be: you and I meet here.. it was always meant for us to meet here. Don't worry that things won't happen when there is no other way for it to happen..

when does it end?

Have you ever wondered?

Do we have any limits? should we?
As much as we'd like to think we do not have limits.. we do.. it's our nature.

How about greed? how can anyone be so greedy that he can not stop asking for more? To answer that.. let's look into what we gain by having things..
It's opportunities.. I get a new car.. I can take long trips.. I can go anywhere I want whenever I want.. no matter the time of day or year..
I get a new house.. I already had one.. but.. I didn't have a pool.. now.. I have a pool.. I can get my "friends" (not commenting on the quotes right now) over whenever I want.. whenever I feel lonely.. I'm important..
But if I have all this.. why isn't it all enough? What else could I ask for?
It's because we do not treat this kind of opportunity with responsibility..
We actually do not become free.. all these come with sacrifices.. and obligations..
What I didn't see when I bought my new car.. is the insurance that I have to pay for it and the gas to run it..
My home can no longer be taken care of all by myself.. so.. I have to pay the housekeeper, the gardener.. and again.. the insurance.. It's not my house anymore..
So.. if I stumble in some situation that does not allow me to sustain my current level in society.. I am no longer there.. that's why it is impossible for me to give up whatever I'm doing to sustain this way of life..

The simplest example is a star: "oh.. look.. I am glamorous.. great.. famous.. rich.. I can have everything I want.." everybody wants that (wonder why?.. watching TV?)
But these are clowns.. they don't even have the rights to live a normal life.. they don't have privacy.. they get stuff for free.. but their every move is being watched and criticized. These guys are not free.. they are puppets. They have to come on the red carpet every year for you to see and praise. 'cause if they don't.. mass-media has a simple way of ruining you.. and then.. who will pay for that great house with pool.. It would be a real shame to have lost it.. what kind of example is that.. success is only up.. .. really?

When you are offered an opportunity of making money.. or whatever.. becoming important.. don't just throw it away on obligations.. because by making these dependencies on the system.. you will not be able to escape them in bad times..
Ever wondered why do you hear rich people commit suicide in times of crisis?
Hmm.. one would be that they got some level of importance.. but got fooled in making connections.. making promises to some other parties.. that are ruthless when it comes to getting what it is expected.. and.. in some situations.. there are things a lot more horrible than death.

I have a say.. you can't get in trouble if you are invisible.. but you can't make anything great either.

slaves give birth to slaves

What if I told you the Moon is mine, and you had to pay me money to see it.
What if I told you that Earth was mine and you have to pay me money to live on it. While the first one sounds silly (actually there are people that buy land on the Moon or other planets in our solar system) the second is more realistic. Except it's not me that is taking money from you.
How can there be a difference?
You should read my previous post to get an idea of the answer to that.

The thing is that we are alone in this Universe, so.. it is ours, we have no one else to share it with but ourselves.
Having this perspective our resources are unlimited. We just have to get organized to get what we need.
But for now, all we have is here on Earth. As our number has increased, our consumption rate leaves visible effects on the planet.

Before calling ourselves evolved let's point out where we came from.
Humans as all animals need to satisfy some needs having given some limited resources and means of getting to them. Who lived and who died was decided by nature - to be interpreted as certain uncontrolled events.
All specimens, to survive had the same rule: there are no rules. You had to be stronger to protect your resources from intruders.
But we have evolved..
What are we looking at now? Not much has changed, except that we impose ourselves rules that leave the majority hopeless and some with certain positions the means to manipulate all others. We are actually enslaving ourselves.
How? By giving too much credit to money. We have been raised in believing all resumes to it. Over and over again we are reminded that a successful life means money, and fame. How about education, ethics? We are all in a system where a cause-effect rule applies whether we like it or not.
Instead, they promote the making of money by any means, so that they meet no resistance.

And now.. commercials
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KRbzJ0L1Zn8
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wItKyTltJWM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vJz_dsubWAU

?? It's all about being flashy, outstanding. Outstanding? We are all the same, there is no one superior in any way. We all have potential to do whatever we want. We only differ in what we choose to do.

We have to evolve to a state in which we don't just work for having stuff but work for us as living beings. We should be organized in such a manner that everything we need to sustain life here would be free and available to everyone. We can achieve this. If we all wanted to.
If we manage to use resources out of our planet, then the term of property would have no meaning. Asking for food will be like me now asking you for air. It sounds kind of ridiculous. It is a right I have from the moment I was born because air is plenty for all of us. I don't need anyone to give me something I can get myself without effort and causing no discomfort to others.

Free people look for enslavement.
In certain crisis situations when there is no hope, humans tend to follow the one that gives them hope. But what happens if that someone giving them hope uses this opportunity to build influence and manipulate them for his own wellbeing? We should be skeptical to saviors, especially when we need salvation most. Hope is free, we get it for granted, we do not need anyone to follow. It's only for us to find courage to take action and support our siblings.